Alex in Wonderland

Sleep, Sleep, Sleep

Ξ July 25th, 2009 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Daily Ramblings, Kundalini |

After 2 days of raging Kundalini, 3 days of sleep.  K energies are exhausting to me, but I still cannot regret a moment.  The K has changed everything, I can never go back, nor would I want to.

…and Heaven

Ξ July 23rd, 2009 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Daily Ramblings, Kundalini |

I woke up even earlier this time.  And when I laid back down to sleep, again there were waves of K-energy.  But this time, pure pleasure coursed through me over and over.  Almost orgasmic, though not quite sexual.  Though not quite non-sexual either.  Strange and sometimes wonderful stuff this…

Mystery

Ξ July 21st, 2009 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Daily Ramblings, Kundalini |

I am baffled by the Kundalini.  Trying to understand why it is, what purpose it serves.  I can tell you what it has done for me, so far.  But I have talked to many who have experienced it, though none that began in childhood, as I did.  And none that interpret it as I do.  

To explain somewhat:  As a child, I would lie in bed at night, trying to relax, to sleep.  There would begin a feeling like an electric current at the base of my spine that would gradually work its way up my spine toward my head.  When it reached the base of my skull, it would explode in a cacophany of sound, as I imagine it would sound if one stood at the top of one of those old church towers, right next to the giant church bell as it rang and clanged like no tomorrow. 

On Hell…

Ξ July 21st, 2009 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Daily Ramblings, Kundalini |

I woke up early, CFS raging, Kundalini energy in tandem.  This is a new thing, or at least new to my awareness.  It was hard to breathe and hard not to tense up, my body wanting desperately to fight off the sensations.  But I forced myself to relax into it and let the energies flow through my body, intensely sexual and maddening, but with waves of nausea and pain.  The more I let it flow, the worse it felt, but apparently, I fell asleep, for I woke up a few hours later. 

I had dreamed a dream of my family.  There were strangers there too and they were very judgmental.  There was fighting, tears, frustration and judgment.  I seemed to be the center of some controversy and no one understood me.  It was a terrible dream.

THE most amazing happening in my life

Ξ July 20th, 2009 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Daily Ramblings, Kundalini |

I’ve decided to finally share with the world something that has altered my life completely.  It started about 2.5 years ago… though I think I should perhaps say, re-started or re-awakened, because I think it truly began when I was a child. It is called Kundalini in the East.  I have many things to share about my experiences but for now, I will just let this be an introduction.  MUCH MUCH more later…